In grade two

In grade two I had a teacher (note this is not the teacher who asked me to visit) who gave our class weekly spelling exams. If a student got 100% on something like 3 exams in a row, they were tested on more difficult words the following weeks. My friend and I were "privileged" with these difficult words, & our parents couldn't understand why.

I understand.

It wasn't about rewarding or punishing the good spellers. It was about challenging them. This isn't necessarily a reward, it is more of an incentive. To push us to our limits. To raise the bar. To make us better at what we do.

To perfect us.

That is why I tell myself that if my intake is low this week, I will be challenged to go lower next week.

Today's intake wasn't close to the ideal, but I have reasons for it (not excuses per say) & will make it up tomorrow since I cooked a healthy supper & wanted to show my city family that I would eat lots of that vs. the usual refined carbs, butter, cream... I doubted they would be okay with chowing down on rice cakes, so I made a delightful salad (as usual) & whole wheat pasta with tomatoes & shrimp. I went overboard on eating to prove a point, & that lead to an urge to binge. I had a cookie, rice cakes & nuts after supper, but stopped myself soon after that. My stomach is growling after eating only a few hours ago, so I feel safe. At the most, I'm sure this intake only upped my metabolism & proved that I'll eat almost normal portions if they're cooked in the right way.

Spent my day in a series of bus stops and stores, buying three Christmas presents & studying a bit along the way. Lots of walking & footprints left in the light snow. I bought a "Vogue" today with Angelina Jolie on the cover. My study break reading material I'm quite excited for.

I weighed 124.6 lbs this morning. Disappointed to have only lost 0.2. I really shouldn't weigh myself every day, though it drives me almost crazy not to. I'll have to pack my scale for the Christmas holidays.

Have a good night or day everyone!!