The Holidays

I dragged my scale all the way home & am too terrified to step on. I have been eating, and eAtInG and EATING! ahh. Time to start drawing my New Year's Resolutions up. I'll keep you posted once I make them.

The weight. I think I can honestly meet my 110 pound goal this year. Why? I have all of you, my followers. I can do this, we can all do this :)

Besides eating this break, I have been drinking an awful lot too. One of my resolutions is definitely to drink less, it's a gain of calories and a loss of inhibitions. I had 5 drinks one night this week (and I usually have way more than that too) & hardly felt drunk! That is horrible. Half a year ago I would be stumbling around after 2. Not good.

This Statistics Canada survey called my house, a 45 min phone survey, and I spent the time talking about my health. I tell you, I felt so fortunate repeatedly saying "No", when the lady asked if I had heart disease, diabetes, cancer, cystic fibrosis... the list went on and on and on. I am so fortunate to be in good health. Then she asked how often I drink, and specifically said, how many drinks did you have last night, Tuesday, Monday...all for a week's length. I lied. I said I drank like 2 nights. Followers, I had drank 5 of 7 nights! And that was while I had 2 finals to write! It was only one or 3 drinks at a time but still, that is just awful! No more of that happening.

I started out the semester wanting to be more rebellious. Party more, study less. Great goals, Sea, very nice. Well, they were accomplished. And all that lead to was: me hungover in class, getting drugged by random guys, & very low marks. How fabulous. Luckily, I have learned multiple lessons, nothing too unfortunate came of this, & I really picked my marks up during finals. I like having a little rebellion in my life, don't get me wrong, maybe this food thing can be it.

I always drag in school onto this blog, sorry about that, but my worth is measured in numbers & grades are part of that. I got all 90's on my finals so far somehow. After 70's & lower on my midterms & papers, my grades have evened out to 80's & 90's. Phew. I was freaking out for a bit, but it's all good now. I need these marks if I want to get into an Honours program for my 3rd year of uni, & now there is hope again.

At the same time, I really want to take next year off of school. I do love school, I absolutely adored high school & I can see me being a prof or in school for a really long time on campus. But I just need a break. One year to go on an exchange & travel for a bit. My parents aren't too keen on the idea. A couple days before Christmas I was surprised to find out that I received a $1500 scholarship. While that is awesome because (a) the hard work payed off (b) it is money (c) not many 2/3/4th year undergrads get scholarships, I was sort of frustrated by it. My parents see it as "You're doing so great in school, why drop out now?" I shouldn't be frustrated with this, I should be jumping up & down with joy, but it's just really confusing. I don't understand my emotions or personality. Ahh, some days I get so excited about the wrong thing, and other days I'm angry at something like this.

Confusing.

Anyway, Christmas was wonderful, a small celebration with my parents and brother. I received wonderful presents (pajamas, book store & Starbuck's gift cards, mitts, perfume, a scrapbook, I think my Mom's buying me an iPod Touch yet, & she made me this neat exercise mat, time to get on the floor & do some calisthenics).

The rest of my days have been spent with friends, reading, & painting (maybe I'll post a picture of my Freud painting when I'm done) while watching Sex in the City seasons. It has been wonderful.

Tomorrow my friend & I are going to another city to pick up our good friend we haven't seen since August. I can't wait until we see her. It has been too long!

I need to claw my nails into this break, it is going way too fast. I guess that means it is going well! I hope your breaks are also lovely!